i woke up this morning wanting to delete the post i made last night, but figured that i should keep it up because that is how i was feeling and it doesn't go away just because i deleted the post. and why shouldn't my friends know the real me, the complete emotional disaster that is me??? i revel in feeling sorry for myself, not a good trait, but one that is a part of me nonetheless. so it is good that i have people i know who post videos of a man doing an Ironman event with his handicapped son to put things back into perspective for me. i wish i could post the video to my page but the video didn't have a link, like to youtube so i couldn't figure out how to do it. it was amazing and inspiring. what a great father. so thank you kara for that and knocking me out of my funk!
also big props to another fab friend who is always worrying about me and calling me up to see if i'm all right and who is always there to pass along good advice and be my makeshift mom haha :) what was it that she said? i need to stop being so hard on myself, focus on what i have done so far and not what i haven't done (like be happy about the weight i've lost and not what i haven't lost), organize and get my house ready for selling when i'm feeling like eating (love my anal type A friends), oh yeah, and have another baby if thats what i want and don't not do it because i'm afraid. that last one is going to be tough....i'll start with the first couple of things and go from there!!
so a better day today.....and i re-lost one of those lbs.
sounds like you're in a better place! glad to help out. i'll call you in a few to check in!!! xoxo
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear you are feeling better and happy my post helped to move you to a more inspired place. You keep at it and don't give up on this. The nice weather will get here and we'll be out there running and biking. I just bought new NIKE's and I'm ready!
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