working it out

so this blogging thing is starting to get on my nerves!!  i don't completely get how it works, and the explanations just aren't very understandable to us non-blogging experts.  its very confusing.  whatever!  i'll figure it out.


so today was not fantastic...first of all my plan was to go swimming during A's swim lesson, but she was sick so had to stay home.  so i went tonight around 6:30 to run on the treadmill, and was disappointed in how i did.  my plan was to do a prelim 5K, just to see how i'd do.  i had to walk half of it.  and i did it in 45 mins.  yuck.  the last time i did a 5K pre-A i did it in 30:33.  but this is where i need to remind myself that was when i was running all the time, several lbs lighter (ha),  and just in overall better shape.  it just sucks sometimes when the reality of my weight is thrown into my face.  its like, yes yes, i get it.  i'm a big fatass and can't do the stuff i used to do.  but its not getting me down (well, maybe a little), but i'm just going to work that much harder.  what choice do i have??  can't BS my way thru a tri!!  

my first blog follower!!

Yay fran! Thanks for being my first follower! You get a prize! Well, not really but I will give u an extra hug next time I see u :)

some nice people at my gym

so this is my first day with this blog thing.  and probably because i have no idea how this works, i have had a hard time setting it up.  although google promised "less than 5 minutes!".  so maybe it's just me??  anyway, i hope i actually get some people to read this!


i have been training for this triathalon for over a month now, and have to say i'm doing much better than i thought.  gives me hope that i will actually finish this thing come august.  i am in the gym 5-6 days a week, for at least an hour each time, but more often closer to an hour and a half.  plus 3 days a week i'm swimming on top of that.  its a lot of hard work.  but believe it or not, i'm liking it.  feeling like i'm getting back to my old self, (although i wish the weight loss thing happened as fast as it does on stupid shows like "the biggest loser.")  my trainer, D, who i LOVE, kicks my ass and makes sure i'm kicking my own ass when i'm not with her.  just what i need!!  


of course i have better days than others, and i get frustrated with myself when the workouts are hard.  but realistically i know it is going to take time to get where i want to be.  it takes no time to gain the weight, but forever to lose it!  so, my story for today.  went to the gym to do a spin class, and i had not been to this particular one yet.  after about 10 minutes i realized this was for sure an advanced spin class, though its not listed as such.  i managed for about a half hour, and was not keeping up with the class.  i decided i was going to stop and go do something else.  i whispered to the instructor on my way out that the class was too advanced for me, and she insisted i stay and not to worry, just go at my own pace.  so i felt a little stupid trudging back to my bike, but i did it and finished the class.  not like everyone else there, but i did my best, and not terribly.  then after the class the instructor came up to me and said that i never need to worry about what everyone else is doing, because we all started somewhere.  a bunch of the people around me were giving me lots of encouragement as well.  that made me feel so much better!!  i thought people would be annoyed if i was sitting while they were up, but they all said they pass no judgement on people at all.  they are just trying to get through the class too!  so i'm glad i stayed, and i will be back there next week.  good thing i didn't leave, D would've kicked my tush if she knew i left a class!  


so i started out the week with a really tough workout, only 5 more days to go haha :)

the beginning

the following is a note i posted on facebook feb. 16th, publicly announcing my foray into the world of triathalon training.  a way to help keep me accountable.  you can’t tell a bunch of people you’re doing something that big and then not do it.  you’d look like a total jackass.  it took me a while to tell people, i think i registered for the event in the beginning of january.  needed to build up the confidence a bit first.  and now i’m starting a blog.  this way people can check out my progress if they want, and i don’t have to bombard my fb status with this stuff.  and its mostly a way for me to talk about the highs and lows of this whole process.  thanks for reading!

so in a moment of desperation and depression about my weight, i have decided there's no better way to get yourself motivated than to do something completely crazy that you can't back down from. and thanks to an old friend (yes, you betsy!) i have registered for a triathalon in august, which i am training my ass off for. today i am off to the Y to swim laps, which i haven't done in....ummm....ever.  even better, i detest public pools, and even more, myself in a bathing suit. so this ought to make for an interesting morning! encouraging comments, please :)