ups and downs

well it's getting closer and closer!  only 61 days now, tomorrow it will be 2 months exactly.  holy crap did that fly by.  so i'm up ass early again, this time it was like 5:50.  just ridiculous.  i seriously can't understand it.  i'm like an 80 year old.  i always thought that if you were more active during the day, you sleep better at night.  its having the reverse effect!  


been keeping up with my workouts really well.  ran great on friday, little over 3 miles but didn't stop the entire way.  saturday i took a spin class and sweat my ass off which was awesome, i miss the spin classes so much!  i would really like to try and fit one in at least once a week, its just hard with all the other workouts.  and i'm really doing a lot outside now, i'm actually hardly at the Y now unless i'm swimming or with denise.  all my runs and biking are outside now.  everyone there must think i'm slacking off!  yesterday i swam and did a total body class (toning).  trying to incorporate more weights as well to build up my strength and tone more.  i like muscles.  so of course its a lot, i feel like there's just not enough time in the week to get it all in sometimes.  only two more months and then i can go back to regular working out, take more classes. i miss the variety of those too. that's ok though, i still think this was the best decision for me, to do this tri, it forced me into taking better care of myself and a regular exercise routine.  and i do think it's going to be a lot of fun.  so no matter how difficult it has been at times, i'm really glad i am doing it.  


as far as my weight loss, still struggling.  the summer is just the hardest time to lose weight.  weekends we're down the shore, or out somewhere.  and its just so easy to be bad.  like friday night mike and i went out to dinner, then saturday we took abby to point pleasant.  i don't even pig out, but i just don't have the leeway i used to when i was younger!  every little naughty morsel sets me back.  i went down to 179 as i said before, but then was back up 2, down 1, up 1, etc etc etc.  now this AM i'm back to 179.  i have to concentrate on having really good weeks, so if the weekends are a little crazy, it won't mess me up that much.  biggest thing is i just can't let it get me down.  it just sucks because i feel like i am trying, not like i'm going out to fast food every day.  guess its just the age haha, 36 is sooo old ;)