good friends :)

so first order of business...thanks to my friends fran, lauren and jenn who are still following my blog. yay :)  i know this because they have told me and/or are making comments.  much appreciated!  i don't even think mike has read my last few entries.  i just asked him and he lied and said yes.  jerk haha.  he "read it the other day".  uh-huh.  sure!   and denise, i think you are reading also, so thanks to you too :)


so brought back the evil nike's today, didn't get anything new.  prob going back to the trusty old asics which haven't failed me yet.  


today was day 6 in a row. was feeling good this morning, so decided it would just be a swim day.  i didn't know i was tired until i got into the pool!  after like 3 laps i knew it wasn't going to be a good performance.  so i only did 10, but thats ok.  at least i got thru some.  i should've known i was pushing it.  now i don't know whether or not i should take tomorrow off, but i didn't do much today so today was kind of a day off.  guess i'll see how i feel in the AM.  OH!!  good news, i went down a size in jeans!!  so happy to get rid of those....i was donating a bunch of stuff today and threw them in with the pile!!  hellsss yeah.  can't wait to be rid of all my fat clothes.  see, i miss the days when i could just get dressed every day, like probably most of you.  it takes me forever to get dressed some days.  i have to worry about the way everything looks, is my stomach sticking out too much, how big does my ass look, gotta hide my arms, blah blah blah.  so it'll be nice to just be able to get dressed like a normal person, and know i look smokin' in whateva i'm wearin' ;)   hahahaha i crack myself up.  

better day, except for the f'n nike's and annoying singing lady!

so about that little pound....its gone, and then some.  yay :)  yes, i know you're not supposed to weigh yourself every day, but i had a really good day yesterday, trained with denise, so i just had to weigh myself this morning.  i am very close to 10lbs.  i'm thinking by the end of this week.  i ran great yesterday, on the treadmill, but my distance and endurance were much improved.  HOWEVER.....stupid fucking nike's.  so mike and i went out saturday to princeton, had a lovely day, and we stopped in the princeton running store to get new sneakers.  the guy brings me out a few different kinds, including one pair of nike's. i haven't worn nike for years because they always caused me problems, so i was very hesitant.  but when i tried them on, they felt like pillows under my feet.  i was like, ok ok, i'll take the nike's!  wore them on the treadmill yesterday, and what do you know, today i'm getting pain in my feet and a little in my shins.  should've stuck with my damn gut instinct.  nike's suck!  i love their clothing, but their shoes just blow.  at least that's been my experience.  so back to the damn store my pretty purple and silver pillow sneakers go.  oh well!!  


one more thing.  i have to complain about someone at the gym.  and denise, if you read this, you might know who i'm talking about, and sorry if you like her!!  i don't know her name, but she is friggin obnoxious.  she goes to like every spin class offered every day, and she sings EVERY word of EVERY song, OUT LOUD.  and she's old but acts like she thinks she's young and cool.  and she's about as far from cool as you can get.  i'm sorry, yes, have some energy, but i don't want to hear her sing the whole class, i mean, who does that??  and she tries to look at you and get you to sing with her, like tonight she came in class after me and sat on the bike next to me, and the class was full by that time so i couldn't even change bikes.  i was soooo pissed.  i was like, this damn lady, not the singing spin lady!!!!  and i could see out of the corner of my eye that she was looking at me to sing with her and i'm like hellll nooo weirdo, i'm looking straight ahead.  whatever, maybe i sound like a bitch but seriously its just bothersome.  and i'm not exaggerating.  she sings out loud, like she's in chorus.  no shame whatsoever.  ahhhhh, venting is good haha.  


so thats it, going to bed now!

booooo

gained a pound :(   


damn.  


sucks.  


oh well.  


my fault.  


move on.  

food issues

i'm so tired.  and hungry!  i have to say, i am having some major food issues this weekend.  meaning, i want to eat everything bad i possibly can!  we went out to eat saturday night, and i ordered chicken with baked beans and baby carrots, which was the healthiest looking option on the menu.  it was very good, which probably means it wasn't too healthy, but i did my best.  no dessert of course.  but all i wanted the whole time was abby's grilled cheese which looked amazing, and her fries.  and i'm not going to lie, when mike got up to go to the bathroom, i had a bite of her sandwich and a couple of fries.  uuggghhhh.  i haven't really been having crazy cravings where it lead me to cheat, so of course i was extremely disappointed in myself.  and all day today all i thought about was food.  i ate very healthy though, nothing bad at all, made stir fry for dinner, blah blah blah.  but my its my thoughts that scare me.  i have to stay on track, and i worry about these damn cravings.  i have to really check out some weight watchers recipes this week that are similar to what i am craving, and see if that helps at all.  


other than that, went back to the psycho spin class this morning, but it was a different instructor.  still a very hard class, and i did great.  i think i had that little snack from abby's plate in the back of my mind, had to work really hard!  


so this week my goal is to get this food thing under control by checking out some new recipes.  and of course work my ass off.  literally.  

if you never did, you should. these things are fun, and fun is good!

ok, so i'm obsessed with this quote.  i had it as my fb status today too.  but its so great!  i truly believe that everyone should try something that is out of the box for them, something they never thought they would or could do.  never in a million years would i have thought i'd be training for a triathalon.  and i'm seriously excited about it.  i can't wait to see what my next endeavor will be after this one!


so yesterday i went on a shopping spree at target (imagine that!) to get some new sports bras, workout tees and capri's.  they carry champion brand, which i thought was pretty good.  i don't really want to splurge on nike or another expensive brand yet when hopefully i won't fit into the larger sizes soon.  now, i'm a sweaty bastard when i work out (just ask denise!!), and these bras and tees are supposed to be the dry-fit wicking kind.  ummm, yeah, i was still a sweaty disaster after spin this morning.  so i don't know if its just b/c champion is a cheaper brand, or there is no dry-fit technology that can help me!  i guess i will have to experiment with a couple of other brands.  its seriously embarrassing how much i sweat.  


tonight mike and i cashed in on our reward treat for losing at least 5 lbs in february.  we went to cold stone.  oh how delish.  but i was good and only got the "like it" size cookie mintster in a cup, which only had the ice cream, hot fudge and one oreo cookie, so it wasn't loaded with all the other fabulous toppings you can get.  so not too bad.  i like that we are doing this reward thing, because i pretty much hate eating healthy.  but i can stave off my cravings if i know there is something ahead in the future to look forward to.  so of course i will work out a little harder tomorrow but i don't care because i got to eat ice cream tonight!!!!!!  

days off rule!

ahhhhh....a day off today.  after four very tough workout days in a row, it was much needed.  yesterday morning, denise, my trainer (who i previously referred to as D. reason i was only using first initials for people's names are because of the fact there really is no security/privacy on these blog things, at least that i know of.  but she said she didn't care if i said her first name.)  anyways, denise took me outside for a run, which was really nice.  i love running outside, and its WAY harder than running on a treadmill.  which is good because i need to build up my stamina for outside running since races are not inside on a treadmill!  plus of course she made me do some other stuff but overall it was a good workout.  then, about an hour or so later, i started feeling really crappy.  just really worn down and blah.  it was weird, it felt like my body needed something but i wasn't sure what.  and i felt like that all the way until i went to bed.  i decided to make a dr. appt next week to talk to him about making sure i am getting all the vitamins and nutrition i need while i am training for this thing.  worse thing about yesterday was after i started feeling crappy, i all of a sudden became very discouraged.  like i wasn't really going to be able to do this thing.  i got very cranky, ask mike haha.  but he's good at getting me back on track.  he's my rock :)  


good day off, rested my sore body. back to the grind tomorrow.  spin in the AM and weights afterwards.  and my little cutie has her yoga class.  we heart the Y.  

things that go through my head

i've been writing my posts at night, and last night i was just so friggin tired i couldn't even think straight.  yesterday was a great day at the gym!  i swam 22 laps, which is the most i've done so far.  don't get too excited, other than the first two, i take about a 20-30 second break in between each lap.  swimming is one tough workout!  and i know i'm done when i start swallowing water because my breathing is all out of rhythm.  so before i drown i make that my last lap!  and thankfully i can swim during the morning, because the lifeguards are adults.  i don't trust the teenagers that work at night.  i mean, they're teenagers.  one time when A was taking swim lessons at another Y, i actually saw one of the lifeguards sleeping in the chair.  while there were children in the water.  anyways i'm digressing!  so then after my fabulous swim i did the hill program on the bike for 30 mins.  and that was about good for me for the day!  but i felt great afterwards!  

oh, plus i weighed myself in the AM and lost another 1.6 lbs!  woo-hoo.  actually, its a funny story.  so although its plainly obvious that i'm significantly overweight, i haven't actually told mike how much i weigh.  and we are doing this contest together to lose weight, we have to lose at least 5 lbs a month and we get to treat ourselves to something at the beginning of the next month.  (we both made it this month!)  so yesterday was march 1st, weigh-in day.  he was in the shower when i got on the scale, and seeing that i lost another 1.6 lbs made me excited that i actually said the number that was on the scale (so not ready to reveal that to the entire world), and then said yay!!  so of course he heard me, and i was like, shit, i just told you how much i weigh!!  it was kind of funny.  also, i thought about that afterwards, and i was like, wow, i must be in a good place.  i said "yay" after that number.  and that number is horrendous!  so to say "yay" after that must mean i'm feeling good about myself!!  

i had a funny thought as i was driving home from the gym.  i've always had big boobs.  and i know when you lose weight they get a little smaller, but is all this swimming going to make them a lot smaller??  i hope not.  you never see swimmers with big boobs.  i'm not sure how i would deal with that.  no offense to my smaller-chested followers, of course.  

well today i have training.....waaahhhhh.  love u D :)  btw, she does rule.  she writes me the nicest stuff.  so do my close friends.  love all of u too!  so more later if i don't die today.