just one more post....

apparently i love to hear myself talk because i'm not really cutting back like i said lol.  but today was a significant day for a couple of reasons, and i feel i need to talk about them.  number 1, i rode the entire bike distance, 18 miles, for the first time today.  i had come close, but never the whole 18 miles.  actually i went 18.6 miles.  i was pretty beat when i was done, did a lot of hills so it was a tough but good ride.  and more importantly i'm getting more confident on the road, not as scared as i used to be.  it took me about an hour and 20 mins, which is way under disqualification time.  it does seem weird to me that you have 2 hours to bike, seems like a really long time.  maybe they give you extra time in case your tire blows out or something.  whatever, as long as i am under!  

secondly, i was pretty emotional this morning.  call me a crazy mommy, but today was abby's last day of pre-school and i was so sad!  i cried in the car before dropping her off, and the whole way home!  i am going to be a hot mess at her graduation tomorrow.  anyways, part of my sadness was that she is growing up, you know, my baby is getting so big so fast.  but the other part was while most people get to do it again with another child, i do not :(  i love abby with all my heart, but i'd be lying if i said it doesn't upset me that i don't have another kiddie to share the same moments and experiences with.  i feel sad for her too that all her friends have brothers and sisters, she talks about it sometimes.   anyways, nothing can be done about that right now, but it was how i was feeling today so an important thing to talk about.  thankfully i went right out for my bike ride when i got home, so no emotional eating today.  yay.  

well guess thats it.  hope i make it through tomorrow without too many tears :)