willpower, at least better than usual

so how is everyone feeling this gloomy day after easter?  me??  tired as shit haha.  had a really nice holiday, went down to my sis-in-laws for our annual brunch and then hanging out at their house afterwards.  i was proud of my eating at brunch....had an egg white omelette (btw just had to google how to spell that, it kept underlining it in red and i was like how the hell do you spell it!!!)  and fruit, then i had some salad, steamed beans and carrots, and a small piece of salmon.  no potatoes or belgian waffles which are like my favorite parts of brunch!  oh well, maybe next year when i'm skinny :)  i did have two mimosa's though, probably the worse thing i had....but you can't go to brunch and not have mimosa's, that would be tragic!  anyways, i was proud to have maintained some sort of self-control, because usually i use days like that as excuses to "be bad", but i am really trying to do the best i can even on special days.  because, really, you can make any day a special day....thats how you get yourself to this point in the first place!  oh, its the first thursday of the month, i must have five guys!  birthdays, holidays, weekends, even book club, it all centers around food!  

yesterday afternoon while everyone was just hanging out i went on a long run outside.  i really didn't want to take the day off considering saturday, my stupid stomach was acting up again, and i didn't get to do the swim/bike workout i had planned.  luckily i was totally fine yesterday so i think i'm am for real cured now!  anyways, the run wasn't easy, it was sooo hot yesterday and my legs felt like a ton of bricks.  i managed to do about 3 miles i think, but it was rough for sure!  no biggie, i know not every run is going to be great.  at least i did it.  then at night my mother-in-law made sauce, and my sis-in-law made this concoction she called dirt cake.  yes i had the cake, it was awesome, and one of those things that is worth being bad over!  as is the sauce :)  but i wasn't horrible, did not totally overdo it, and i will be back to the grind this week.  

feeling a little better emotionally as well, don't worry, i'm sure i'll have another breakdown soon haha.  had a couple of sad moments about my grandma.  friday morning when abby was working on easter crafts to give to people, i asked her who she wanted to give the first one to, and completely on her own, she said "i want to give it to Babci, it would make her so happy."  (Babci is grandma in Polish btw).  so i had to excuse myself to cry of course, but i thought it was the sweetest thing.  i'm going to send it to my mom, which i'm sure will make her cry too, but i think she'll like it.  i felt sorry for my mom yesterday, first holiday without my grandma, plus it was her birthday as well.  double whammy.  she sounded so sad when we called.  anyways.....

well hope i survive this week with all this damn easter candy in my house now from a certain grandma of abby's!!  the fact that we leave saturday for vacation will help--yayyyyyy!!!!!!!!!